These past three years of our marriage have been nothing short of God’s hand in our lives. He has saved our marriage, revealed Himself, blessed us, miraculously kept me from death, disciplined us and above all taught us. I would like to start with “saving our marriage”. We were into the latter part of our first year of marriage when I ignorantly mistook “God’s call,” to move us to Nashville, TN, for my selfish fleshly desires. I was sold on the idea that I was going to move us there to pursue my music career as a drummer. This proved a terrible disaster. I was transferring,, from a part-time retail position at Best Buy in Shreveport, to the Best Buy in Nashville and let me just say that for the record Best Buy is not a company you want to work for. The management and overall .dynamics is equal to that of a sweatshop except they pay you slightly more and you get to sleep at your own home. My wife worked at TJ Maxx, in Shreveport, and was also transferring to the store in Nashville. Although these jobs were suffice, for the time being in Shreveport, they were no match for the economical differences of the Nashville money system. You were either super rich or extremely poor and we were the latter. As the months passed things just got harder financially and we kept having to depend on my Father for financial support. This financial, “falling apart,” caused our relationship to quickly destroy us. It all came to a head about six months into living there. So we did what we didn’t want to do and moved back home. This sucked because not only did we have to move back home but we had to move back to our hometown, Natchitoches, into my in-laws house. It was not about the in-laws but rather the fact that Natchitoches held such terrible memories of my childhood and adolescent years.
It was about the middle of October of 2012 when my wife and I were forced to break our apartment lease agreement and leave Nashville. We left the apartment complex owing 1200 dollars. To top all of this off I was promised a transferr back to the Shreveport store but that fell through. Apparently the Nashville management gave a negative recommendation stating that I was a terrible employee. Likewise my wife was unable to transferr back so we left Nashville with no jobs, and no money. We had hit rock bottom or so it seemed. As a couple of weeks came and went the adjustment grew harder and harder as well as the tension of not finding work. It was thanksgiving eve night, as we were heading to my parents house to spend thanksgiving, that our typical fighting had quickly come to a head. My wife and I were gassing up the car and she told me that she was through fighting and she wanted for me to take her back to her moms house. I refused and headed towards Shreveport and she paniced and called the cops. In her defense I was in a terrible rage. Well the cops pulled me over and cuffed me. They made us seperate so my parents came and got me and she went to her moms. We had officially seperated and at that point I vowed that I would divorce her.
“The Story Begins”
To make this story shorter about 3 months passed and God had been working on me. I was listening to KLOVE when Sanctus Real’s Lead Me came on and it was then that I realized my need for God in my life. I told Him that if He would restore my marriage then I would do whatever He wanted me to. Well by the same time the next year my wife and I had reconciled and not only that but our relationship had seen a strength and unity unlike anything we’d ever known and even more God had given us our first set of twins. I was actively pursuing the promises I had committed to God. He had impressed upon my heart, which I wrestled tirelessly, that He wanted me for ministry. He made that evident by introducing me to a seminary within the church that we started attending. I started that following fall semester and have been attending ever since. Now there is one thing you must know about me and that is what God had delivered me from. I was about 9 when my insatiable sexual appetite had developed and I have been battling it ever since. God had delivered me from a bad drug and alcohol addiction but this was my thorn in the flesh that He wouldn’t lift. Over the next couple of years He would ultimately use this porn addiction to mold me and know a deeper faith and dependance on Him. I am happily delivered from those chains of slavery today but I still struggle with it which is why I diligently read His word and pray.
“Yet to be determined”
So about 14 months after we had our first set we found out that we were pregnant with our second set. We were very shocked but felt that this was in God’s plan for our lives to use this as a part of our testimony. Now before I jump too far ahead I want to address the death pardon. It was about 3 months into our first pregnancy that my wife and I had moved out to Waskom Tx. I was on my way to Shreveport, with my wife following, when I was on my phone and clipped the tail end of a car going 75 mph. My truck flipped and skidded about 100 feet into the ditch. Luckily I was able to get out before it caught fire. So once more God is at work in our lives. With our second set on the way my desire and pursuit for ministry had begun to completely envelope me. God has yet to describe to me any details, or hints of details, as to just what in the ministry I might be doing and further more He had not given me any ministry opportunities. I can say this though that all of my strength and ability to care for my family, as well as juggle a full time job and seminary, only comes from the Father. He is good and has a very specific and wonderful plan for my wife and I which is why we are recklessly diving head first into complete reliance and faith in Him.
I hope this encourages you to finally seek a relationship with Christ and fully surrender your life to Him. My story is unique to me and is not God’s plan for you but nonetheless He has a very special and unique plan for your life. Won’t you accept this invitation?
“In Love & Christ,”